Saturday, March 27, 2010


4 hours in the kitchen,
2 different recipes,
2 slabs of butter,
4 eggs,
3 cups of sugar,
4 cups of flour,
4 teaspoons of vanilla extract,
1 cup of milk,
One 12 mini-cupcake pan,
One 12 cupcake pan,
60 cupcake cases,
A punctured piping bag,
A cup of pistachios
A cup of dark chocolate chips later,

And yes, the stand is mine :) And I am in love with its adorable-ness.

Here's to many more awesome cupcakes in the future !

Thursday, March 25, 2010

The Idea :)

What a marvelous night it is.

What a fantabulous night it is.

Why, shall we dance?

Beneath this comfortable blanket of stars, twinkling in all their magnificence.

A waltz, a foxtrot even.

Let's just dance.
Allow inhibitions to dance alongside us instead of them dancing within us.

Oh how we'll smile. Oh how we'll laugh.
Imagine the fun we'll say we had.

Lets, shall we?


Words of Wisdom

My mother e-mailed this to me, and it was definitely worth the two minutes it took to read it through.

I Believe....
That just because two people argue,
It doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue,
It doesn't mean they do love each other.

I Believe...

That we don't have to change friends if
We understand that friends change.

I Believe....

That no matter how good a friend is,
they're going to hurt you every once in a while
and you must forgive them for that.

I Believe...

That true friendship continues to grow,
even over the longest distance.

Same goes for true love.

I Believe...
That you can do something in an instant
That will give you heartache for life.

I Believe....

That it's taking me a long time
To become the person I want to be.

I Believe...

That you should always leave loved ones with
Loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I Believe....
That you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I Believe....

That we are responsible for what
We do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe...

That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe...

That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs
to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I Believe.....

That my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time

I Believe....

That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down
will be the ones to help you get back up

I Believe...

That sometimes when I'm angry
I have the right to be angry,

But that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I Believe....
That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had
And what you've learned from them and less to do with how many
birthdays you've celebrated.

I Believe....

That it isn't always enough,
to be forgiven by others.

Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I Believe...
That no matter how bad your heart is broken

the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I Believe....

That our background and circumstances
may have influenced who we are,
But, we are responsible for who we become.

I Believe...

That you shouldn't be so eager to find
Out a secret. It could change your life Forever.

I Believe....

Two people can look at the exact same
Thing and see something totally different.

I Believe...

That your life can be changed in a matter of
Hours by people who don't even know you.

I Believe.....

That even when you think you have no more to give,
When a friend cries out to you -
you will find the strength to help.

I Believe...

That credentials on the wall
do not make you a decent human being.

I Believe...

That the people you care about most in life
are taken from you too soon.

'The happiest of people don't necessarily
have the best of everything;
They just make the most of everything they have.'

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Program Pendedahan Kerjaya Seorang Doktor


Still, today, not much.
Visited Pembedahan Am department.
Got the same old talk from the surgeon there.
How long houseman-ship is, how long med school is.
Wish they talked more about their daily schedule as a doctor in their respective fields.
Anyway, he was funny though, so it was alright :)

We just saw some patients lying in bed in the surgical ward. Got another speech from a houseman. She was very direct, and truthful, and I liked her. She told us all about what being a houseman is about, but that time, even after hearing it so many times from different housemen that I didn't want to listen to, I believed her. I heard her, and I believed and respected her, for some reason. I don't know. Another houseman was nice, she said, it's satisfying, and if you enjoy helping others and being there for them and making the better, she recommends the profession for you if not, then don't.

So that was the program. It was good, had a good view into the lives of doctors in different departments, as small as the view was, we got a general idea I think.

All in all, it was a great experience and I won't forget it, and I'm grateful for the fact that I got to see what I was getting myself into before actually putting one foot in the door, unlike those before me.

Sorry there aren't any pictures, most of the time we weren't allowed to take any so yeah, didn't bother taking anything at all. Hope my memory served me, and you, well :)

Adios ;)

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Program Pendedahan Kerjaya Seorang Doktor

Day II

Today was Outpatient Clinic, ED, and Orthopedics day.

All were pretty much the same. Tours with information.

The outpatient clinic was cool. We saw doctor's diagnosing patients, and there's a diabetic footcare clinic there too. A person had to amputate half of the left foot including 4 toes. And we saw how the doctor took care of it. That was basically it.

The ER was just a tour with some info. Nothing much. The critical zone was quiet. Not many people were there.

The orthopedics was alright. Got a tour, went to see some patients in the wards. Then talked to some houseman's. One in particular was really good. Liked the way he explained what a houseman's life is all about. It's hard, but if you manage time well, it's alright. There was a houseman who's pregnant. Showed us you can have a life, despite all the things you hear.

Till tomorrow.


Monday, March 22, 2010

Program Pendedahan Kerjaya Seorang Doktor

Day I

It started at around 9 am and finished at 4 pm.

We were all divided into 6 groups, I'm in Group 5.
So awesomely, the first thing on Group 5's agenda, was to visit the forensic ward.
Boy was that visit UNFORGETTABLE.

We went into the autopsy room after getting a tour around the place, and they were performing a postmortem on a 2 year old boy. We just saw them finish up though, they were stitching the boy's abdomen. He died a sudden death that boy. It was sad, to think about his parents and family, but other than that, I didn't feel much queasiness or nauseous or anything like that. After that, we went to a meeting room to look at a slide show about forensic science, and forensic cases the hospital covered. One case was a person who fell off a building. I am completely serious here, that person's brain and head looked like it had exploded, berkecai. There were shreds of flesh hanging from the top of what used to be a perfectly formed head. And, to top that off, the person's face split into two, right down the middle. No joke. They showed us what they use to cut the skulll, its a big drill basically. Though it has this vacuum technology to suck all the blood that comes out. They showed us some pictures of exhumation where the body had begun to decompose. All sorts of things, alcoholics, people who got hit by trains, and also those who had TB. So after the slide show, we went back to the autopsy room and they were performing a postmortem on a 22 year old lady who died of postpartum complications. That time we all saw them looking at the woman's insides. They cut her brain as well (sort of slices), to see whether there was any violence involved in her death, to search for impact points of blows to the head if any. And the forensic specialist showed us the woman's medulla oblongata. It's really not that big ;P

After that, we went to the obstetrics and gynecology department. Nothing much there, no live viewing of anything. They just showed us where the clinics are, and we saw some pregnant women, and we saw a newborn baby, very amazing :)

So it was a balanced day for all of us.

Death in the morning, Life in the afternoon.

That's a day of exposure alright.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

- -

Bye bye comfort zone.

Preparing to say hello to a whole new world, is scary.

And that is exactly why




Wednesday, March 17, 2010

It still isn't comforting.

Got my P today :)
Well, I passed the test, :D

As the title says, it still isn't comforting.
I thought, maybe after this test, I'd be less, I don't know how to describe it.
Let's just put it this way, I thought I'd be less bothered.

Bothered about, thinking about my future. Haha, honestly I have no intention of being dramatic here. It's the " What's to become of me?" sort of feeling.

Medicine has already put its spell on me; lured me in like a siren does sailors.

I'd be moonstruck if Medicine was a man.


What a way to put into words what career path you have chosen for yourself. Weird. Leave that department to me, "Being Weird". I'm terribly good at it, believe me.

Speaking of career paths chosen for yourself, it doesn't necessarily mean you'll be able to walk that path. I guess I'm ready for that. But by ready, I mean, I'm ready for me not being able to do it overseas. I still want Medicine. Haha, I'm moonstruck, remember? :P

But seriously now, if, I don't get to do what I want to, for some strongly persistent reason, then, I'm going to have to think and think fast, because I have no idea what would be better than Medicine at this point. I was contemplating Geo-science, but after giving it MUCH MUCH thought, Medicine still won. My heart is just set on it. I don't care what people say about it being hard, or the fact that you'll be putting yourself under a lot of stress. All I'm thinking about is that gratification, when I've finally become Dr.. I know I'll feel good about myself. And I think that's all that matters. Realizing your dreams, one step at a time, and enjoy the fruits of your labour when you've reached that goal :)

Even if I don't do medicine, finding a substitute will be hard, I will not fib. But, once I find it, I'm going to do the best that I possibly can to make me proud of myself. And of course, my parents. I'm probably going to be a bit embarrassed if I don't do medicine after this, but hey, if I can't then I can't.

So, I'm just going to have to work with what I get.

Friday, March 12, 2010


Meja sudah berpusing.

I never knew that it could be this difficult!
Choosing a career path.
I've always imagined being a doctor was what I absolutely want to be.

Well, now, I'm not entirely sure.
I still want to, but I feel, welll, I don't know :D

Kind of scary.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

He's gone.

The invisible annoyer.
Poof, out of my life for the time being.

Don't come back too soon.


Tuesday, March 9, 2010

The Invisible Annoyer.

It's like someone's reaching into my gut and poking it gently.

It tickles but it hurts. Sort of like a short, gentle but a little painful pinch.

It's a fuzzy, uncomfortable feeling. There, that's the word, it's fuzzy.
But not in a cute way.

Mind you this is the first time I'm feeling this since I knew results were coming out on the 11th.

I don't feel nervous. It's just this damn invisible annoyer tugging at my guts.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Little story for you :)

Standing in front of the apartment building where I live, I wait for the bus, agitated.
It's 37 degrees outside today; excruciating, blistering heat.
Sweat forms on my upper lip and brow. Irritated, annoyed and flustered I use the back of my hand to wipe the droplets off my face. I look behind me and there are ladies and men sitting around chatting to their friends, not seeming to realize or care how hot it is.
I tell myself " That's my problem, I fidget too much. You know what, no, curse my overactive sweat glands."
5 long, hot, minutes later the big black and red bus pulls over to the side of the road and I am the first to get in. The whoosh of the air-cond on my face as I step in sends a relieving cool feeling all over my body. I walk to middle of the bus and sit by the window on the right side. I settle down and I feel so much better, much calmer. I watch as everybody rushes in and takes their seats.

As the bus begins to make it's way to our university, I look out the window, gazing at the beautiful green trees that tower over and border the neighbourhood across the street from the apartments. From one of the neighbourhood streets in front of the bus emerges a man on a bicycle. He's about 45 to 50 years old from what I can see. He looks back and then he smiles a tiny little smile, but he returns to concentrate on getting a good sweat out of the ride. He cycles his way from the corner and makes his way straight down the street. Not two seconds after him, another person pops out from the corner, on a bicycle too. A girl of about 17, with a serious and sour face plastered on.

I figure she must be that man's daughter.I figure that her father just wants to spend some time with her this morning, by doing some fun exercise. And from her face, that girl doesn't think exercise is fun so early in the morning. She doesn't want to spend time with her father on this blistering hot morning exercising when she could be at home, in bed or watching television. She remains a foot behind her father as they cycle past the bus and out of my sight.

I turn and look at the back of the seat in front of me.

That girl doesn't know how lucky she is.
How lucky she is to have a father who cares.
How lucky she is to have a father so willing to spend time with her, even if she's in one of her moods.
How lucky she is that her father has free time and chooses to spend it with her.
How lucky she is to see her father everyday.

I could tell, even from the millisecond that I witnessed that smile on her father's face, that he loved her, very much.

That girl doesn't realize how lucky she is.
I wish I could go tell her.
"Lighten up girl. You're spending time with your father. Go see if you can out-cycle him. Race him back to your house, beat him on the way, but let him win just before you reach the gate. Let him tell your mother that his 17 year old daughter can't catch up to her 50 year old father. Haha. Let him tell your mother that he's still got it, he's still goood."

Realizing that I'm daydreaming, I shake my head and I laugh a little.

I miss my Daddy.
I wish he was here.

The Necessity of Necessity

Necessity is the mother of invention "


Necessity, rightttt.

I can't put my finger on what to call what "necessity" has turned into.

Since when is a beef holster for an iPod nano necessary?!?!?!

That is cold cut beef by the way. -_-

But then again, there are some inventions that are absolutely ridiculous, BUT, actually have a minuscule bit of sense in their existence. Haha. For instance:

It's to prevent your hair from getting noodle sauce alllll over it. And oh isn't it such a fashion statement?! Wonderful.

An instant noodle cooler; either for sensitive tongues and teeth or for those who just can't wait to dig into their super hot scrumptious noodles!

Tell me, which girl ( or guy ) would want their new and or old but awesome shoes get wet and damaged in the rain?

For those one or two pesky little pieces of dust that you happen to spot on the floor/carpet; OH HOW ANNOYING!


Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Nama Timangan is Nickname? Whoah

Nama-nama timangan oleh org tersayang

1. Princess, Turtle, Girl - All used by Umi and Bab (Mum and Dad)
2. Kim - Used by Aunty
3. K - I devised this mysterious one haha, Nadia and Taufeeq use it :)
4. You - Ayesha and I both call each other this.
5. Metot - Aunty calls me this :)
6. Quiche/Spendermoonsan - Adnin came up with this in form 3 I think, don't ask. Still used until today! haha.
7. Sha/Cikebum - Aisyah Nasa calls me them.
8. Didi - Little brother and little cousins call me this :) It means big sister in Hindi.

Anda seorang yang

1. Suka membuat lawak untuk membuat seseorang gelak sampai perut nak pecah.
2. Gelak dengan suara yang kuat kalau perkara yang diketawakan tu mmg lawak nak mampos.
3. Suka gila babeng dengar muzik :)
4. Suka bersendirian, tetapi...
5. Suka keluar dan spend time dengan kawan :)

Insan teristimewa. Describe apa yg membuatkan dia terlalu istimewa di mata anda.

1. Umi and Bab :D - My pillars!
2. Ayeshaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa - My daily dosage of insanity :D
3. Best friends - Ma chicas, SKAND :)

Makanan favourite anda

1. Roti! Ciabatta, Croissant, White bread, Brown bread, Turkish rolls, Baguette, garlic bread, Baby buns, Butterscotch Gardenia, you name it! :D
2. Soya beeeeaaaaaannnnnnn.

Favourite color

Vhite, Black, Turqoise, Gold :)

Favourite song

Right now, Dangerous Animals -Arctic Monkeys, killer guitar and bass!!!!!

Sikap yg membuatkan anda stress

1. Orang yang tak menghargai effort orang lain yang cuba menggembirakannya. (I totally agree Daia.)
2. Orang yang tak reti diam.
3. Orang yang mem-pressure kan kita lagi semasa berada dlm situasi yang sudah membuatkan kita nervous.
4. Orang yang mempunyai self-esteem rendah dan berharap kita akan tolong dia all the time. Tolong sikit boleh, lama2 kena tolong diri sendiri.

3 benda yg mesti ade dalam bag/handbag anda...

1. Handphone saya yang amatlah comel :D haha
2. Wallet
3. Kertas2 dan bill2 yang berterabur! Memang gerentee ada setiap masa, dlm setiap handbag yang saya ada!
4. Plaster. Oops dah terlebih. kahkahkah :D

Kali terakhir anda menangis beriya-iya..kenapa??

Err, haha buat apa nak tahu?

Tag 5 rakan anda

Saya rasa semua orang lain dah buat kot.
Aisyah Nasa?
:D Silakan.